June 17, 2008
Believing
God puts us in certain situations for reasons unknown to us. I must have faith and confidence in his plan.
Jeremiah 29:11 states, “For surely I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. Plans for your good, and not for your harm, to give a future with hope.”
This passage in the Bible is my favorite. It has gotten me through many rough times and I must call on it again to remind me of God’s promise.
I know that going through this struggle of my beliefs being tested, along with a friendship, will only make me stronger but I am fearful.
I am fearful of change. I am fearful of all of us moving out of our little family community we built here. I am fearful of friendships dwindling. I am fearful of being alone and forgotten.
We all become so busy with our own lives that we forget. We forget to make phone calls, we forget to check in with each other, and we forget how important our friendship is to other people. I don’t want to forget and I don’t want to be forgotten.
But I have a future and I have hope. I know that God will provide me with what I need, when I need it. I must believe in his goodness and I must trust in Him.
June 15, 2008
Morals and Beliefs
I have a situation that I don’t know how to handle. Which, really, doesn’t happen to me very often. I’m usually very good with confrontation. This situation challenges my morals, values, and belief system.
My room mate has made the decision to see women. Yes, I guess she is declaring that she is a lesbian. This was not the case when we moved in together. I would have never moved in with her if it was. This will not change our friendship, as I have had other friends before that “bat for the same team.” However, I did not have to live with it. I really wasn’t sure how to approach this issue with her or if I should. She never really came out and told me but I got the hint when her girlfriend ended up staying the night last night. So it all came to a head today.
Basically, I told her that I did not feel comfortable with her friend being in the apartment at all. Which is unfair to her because she does pay rent to live here. It is also unfair to me since I should not have to feel uncomfortable in my own home. So, I guess we came to the agreement that her friend could hang out here but not stay the night and not be behind closed doors. I hope that is the agreement we came to. She left pretty upset.
I, truthfully, don’t even want her in the apartment but I know that I should have to give a little. She does pay rent also. If I had my way she would not be in the apartment at all, I would ignore the situation because I would never have to see it.
That lifestyle just goes against my Catholic beliefs. It is a sin and immoral. That is what I believe. I’m sorry she is choosing to go to hell but that is how I feel. I really don’t know if I can live with her anymore but I don’t know how to approach it. Financially, she cannot live on her own. I do feel bad about that, which is why (I think) I have not said that I won’t live with her. I’m stuck between a rock and a hard place and I don’t know what to do.
