September 6, 2008
School
The second week of school is over. I am not motivated for this school year. The night before the first day of school is usually a nervous one (yes, even for teachers). This year, I slept like a rock and had the “whatever” attitude. This attitude has continued into the school year. Instead of it feeling like we have been in school for two weeks, it seems like we have been in school for two months. I contribute some of this to not really having a summer. I didn’t get to travel or visit friends do to surgery and moving. I also think I’m starting to burn out. They say that after a teacher’s fifth year of teaching they start to burnout. I thought this wouldn’t happen to me but apparently it is. Technically, this is my 6th year teaching (4th in NC). I think that I need a change. That change would be a move in grade levels.
Grad school has also started and it is a lot of work. Just added stress into my life. I have gone out every weekend and had some drinks. I NEVER went out last school year and I really didn’t go out this summer. I contribute this to Grad school. It’s not a bad thing…just expensive 
Some of the teachers I work with are starting a swim team (for fun). We are renting a lap lane at the local YMCA for an hour. We are going to swim twice a week. If Michael Phelps burns 4000 calories per workout then hopefully these two workouts will do something to help shed some weight…at least get me into shape! I am sporadically still working out at Curves. I really need to get into the routine of that again.
September 1, 2008
HHmmmm
I’ve always been the one to do the right thing (most of the time). I’m hardly ever careless, especially with relationships. While all my other friends were off being careless in college, I really didn’t. Of course, I had one or two flings but that was it. Really, it was three. That’s not even one per year. Doesn’t everyone go through that phase in life? You’re careless and free spirited and you just have fun. I didn’t do that. Maybe I should have that phase in my life. I think it would be a good thing to get out of the way before I turn the big 30!
August 5, 2008
New Presidential Canidate
I thought that McCain’s ad attack against Obama about being a celebrity was quite entertaining. Here is a new presidential canidate in response to that attack. I had to laugh….
July 25, 2008
Respect
I have never not gotten along with a roommate. I could never really say that I dislike someone. I always try to find something positive about everyone. I try to see the good. I really do. Until yesterday. For the first time I find myself wishing that I could cut off all relationships with my roommate. I don’t think that I have truly felt this way about anyone before. It kinda makes me not like myself.
However, I do have respect for myself. I do have my pride and my beliefs. When people do not respect me I cannot respect them. You have to give it to get it. Yesterday, I was shown that my roommate has no respect for me, my beliefs, or our friendship. So, I guess I am done with this so called friendship. Luckily, she is moving out next Sat. so I only have to deal with her existence until we get all the financial things settled with the apartment.
It makes me sad that things ended up this way. Of course, I blame her but who ever blames themselves? I just know that as a friend, I would never make any of my friends feel uncomfortable if I could help it. I have respect for all my friends and thier beliefs, no matter how different they are from mine. I guess I was just raised that way, unlike other people.
July 17, 2008
Music
I have a friend from college that has been trying to break into the music industry. She started out by singing country but has changed her “tune”. Below are the lyrics to her new single. You can check out her myspace page at http://www.myspace.com/mollyerees
Different
By Mollye Reese and Jamie Slocum
I have had the right
To stand and fight
But it would have still been wrong
I’ve had the chance to prove
A hurtful truth
I had to let it go and just move on
‘Cause there’s a gift called grace
That’s captured my life
Though the way of the world is power and pride
I want to be different, Jesus
Just like You
I want to be tender with mercy
Guiding all I do
So when others talk about me
Let it be because
I am different
Let the difference be love
Let me have the kind
Of heart that shines
The light and shows you’re real
And where hope is dim
And fear sets in
Will you use me Lord to help and heal
I don’t want wealth or fame
To define the life I live
Oh let me be known
For what I give
I want to be different, Jesus
Just like You
I want to be tender with mercy
Guiding all I do
So when others talk about me
Let it be because
I am different
Let the difference be love
Every day is a chance to serve You
By caring for someone else
I will make the choice to surrender
And not live for myself
I want to be different, Jesus
Just like You
I want to be tender with mercy
Guiding all I do
So when others talk about me
Let it be because
I am different
Let the difference be love
July 12, 2008
Recovering
Surgery is done and over with. Recovery is not going so well. I returned from the hospital on Wednesday. I returned to the hospital via emergency room on Friday. My calcium level will not stay on normal levels.
You know, when a body part falls alseep and you get that pins and needles feeling? Everything is all tingly and kinda hurts and tickles at the same time…well, that is what your body does when your calcium level is to low. My whole body felt like that on Friday. It was not comfortable or fun. So I went to the ER and they pumped 2 bags of calcium into my body. Woke up today feeling okay but then the tingly feeling started coming back. I called the Dr. on call and got a prescription. Basically, they are just cramming things into me to keep me out of the ER. I have a Drs. appointment first thing Monday morning. Hopefully, I can make it till then without having to go back to the hospital.
I hate not having control of things. I hate this feeling of not knowing if my body is going to crash at any moment. It’s not a feeling that anyone would like though…obviously. It doesn’t make me feel any better being alone though. I would feel better if at least Katy was here but she’s out of town. The parents had to head back home, which I totally understand and don’t blame them one bit.
I hate this.
July 5, 2008
Surgery
On Tuesday, July 8th, I have to have surgery…again. This is somewhat like the surgery that I had back in highschool but not as invasive. I’ve been trying to keep myself busy so I wouldn’t think about it. It is not really that big of a deal but any surgery is stressful…no matter how small. I just pray that when the surgeon goes in he finds what he is looking for since none of my scans showed what we needed them to.
My parents are coming down to NC for about a week to be with me. That takes some stress off of me and it will be nice to have family around. Hopefully, they don’t get to bored!
June 19, 2008
Starting to fall…
Things are finally starting to fall into place! I actually got approved for my new apartment and have a place to move to in August (Thanks for the recommendation Rebecca!). I finally got my surgery scheduled for July (and the week I wanted it). So, that means my parents will be coming down for a week to help take care of me!
I know that these are little things but they are something and I need something to cling too despite everything that has happened within the past 5 days.
June 14, 2008
Newbie here….
So, I am new to this whole blogging thing. Not really sure if this is supposed to be like a “Dear Diary” sort of thing or just a rambling of posts about my non-eventful life and thoughts. I used to keep a journal but rarely wrote in it. Since I am on the computer every day I thought it might be easier for me do this. I need someway to get my thoughts out and really don’t have any other outlet at the moment. We’ll see how this goes…
